So far life as a Mommy is so much more than I expected in so many ways. For starters I didn't think I could ever love something this much...It is a different kind of love that I have ever experienced...sorry Matt :-). I can't stop looking at her and smiling. Every time I put her down I want to pick her up again and hold her. It's just overwhelming.
There are some parts that are a little more difficult as well, I am worried I'm not doing a good job sometimes. When she cries and I can't figure out why, I feel really guilty. I know that this is normal and that is my saving grace right now. It's all a part of being a parent, being responsible for a life other than my own.
I am trying to get out and about everyday. I think I could possibly go crazy if I didn't. We go for little walks or trips in the car to the Grandparents house. Today I ventured into a drug store BY MYSELF for the first time. That was such a fete! She didn't even cry. I was quite proud I must say!
She is doing so well. She eats like a champ and sleeps really good through the night. Well not through the night. She wakes to eat about every 2 hours but she doesn't wake up crying. She lets me know with little noises that it's time. I'm so in tune with her that it doesn't take much and I'm springing from bed to nurse her. I've been pumping quite a bit lately so that I can give myself a break once in a while. It will be nice when Matt can feed her. Right now she won't take a bottle but we have only tried a couple times. It will take some work but I'm sure she will eventually take one.
That's about it for now, once again it's late and I'm TIRED.
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